I AM A MIRACLE!

The month of August has been an interesting time for me.  I can’t believe the year is almost over.  This year has went by so fast!  So much has happened good and bad!  I thank God for it all because it was all for my good!  I have hit some milestones in my life, some highs and some lows, but knowing in all of it I am a overcomer.

This morning I logged in to my Facebook app to purposely look for the “On this day” feature.  I love to look at the memories; how I have matured in Christ since November 1, 2012.  It reminds me that God is working on me.  Today I saw an old modeling photo shared in August of 2010, probably taken in my late 20’s in downtown STL.  It was a beautiful day out and the photographer I only worked with once.  I remember feeling so beautiful that day in a itty-bitty white bikini.

I left the shoot feeling accomplished.  I was pursuing my dream of being the next Twiggy!  The reality was, I was such a mess.  Modeling was the only way I felt beautiful.  Every other day, I felt ugly and unloved.  As I look at this photo today I see a broken girl, lost in the world trying to find herself.  I didn’t know who I was.  I was seeking male attention, affection, I just wanted to hear the words you are beautiful.  I substituted being sexy for being beautiful, not realizing it, and made it easy for emotionally unavailable men to be attracted to me.

When I see the then and now transformation, I can’t help but give God glory!  I am 5 years celibate only because of our savior Jesus Christ!  I remember the day when he called me out of darkness!  Only because at the time I was willing to hear God speak to me that day!  God wanted to use me even in my mess!  It was through a prophecy received that God said he need a ‘yes’ or a ‘no’ from me, and a prophetic dream that made me cry out “YES LORD!”

Today I walk in victory!  Each day I get out of bed, still giving God the glory I overcome the enemy!  I walked away from non-Christian men and ran straight into the arms of Jesus!  I gave up modeling and with that small act of obedience God blessed me!  I have a new walk, talk, and style of clothes.  I have a new attitude about beauty praise God!  Inner beauty is illuminating, it’s attractive, it’s not abrasive and it is pure.  I thank God for giving me an inner beauty.  Yes I do believe I am beautiful on the outside, but I needed to be healed on the inside first.  Only God could do that!

I know that my walk with Christ is not by chance.  I have an assignment to encourage others and I intend to do so!  God is not through with me and he is certainly not through with you!  I am a miracle!  The devil did not want me to be saved!  God found me and turned my life around.  I owe him my life!  Just as he gave his for me!  I love him!  And I love you all too! God bless!

 

AT FIRST SIGHT???

 

I can’t say I am a fan of the TV show “Married At First Sight”, but to each his own.  It’s funny because people do this in every day life without the wedding bells.  Christian dating and waiting can be tough, whether you’re a guy or girl.  There are times you just get tired of waiting…especially if it’s been a few years.  There are a lot of strong opinions about Christian dating.  Should we date or wait and allow God to choose a spouse for you?  What you do is your business let me just say that. If you are dating let me just say be careful of falling in love At First Sight!

Often we are captured by the persons beauty or physical appearance first.  We really should try to be more like God and look at the heart, see

1 Samuel 16:7 

And for those of us who live in La-la land we dream up a relationship, wedding, and family all within the first 5 minutes of meeting someone.  STOP IT!  Fellas you are already undressing the girl 10 minutes after the first hello.  Don’t do that it stops your brain cells from processing what she is actually saying. Come on now, we all embody the fruit of the spirit temperance (discipline) right?  I’m speaking to myself too!

All I’m saying is, be careful of the “at first sight” syndrome.  Give it time to foster from strangers to associates, associates to friends.  And if something is there and you sense there is more pray and ask God.  That may be your spouse!  God bless!

#FREEDOM

It’s hard to describe how I feel today.  It is an unusual mixture I haven’t felt before; blissful and yet a little bit of chaos.  Excited and nervous!  Fearful and Bold!  When I hear the words “You are in transition”  I automatically go into panic mode.  It’s a familiar place and yet it is unfamiliar.  It is familiar because I have been in a state of transition before with God.  But I know and understand that every place of transition is not the same.  If you’re a hiker or mountain climber you can understand what I am saying.  Though the goal is the same, how you reach it can be different on each level.  Mountains vary greatly in size and terrain.  Each plateau or place of rest can differ.  Some have more scenic trees or grass, and some have only a small dangerous cliff for you to take break at.  Transition can make you feel like your stepping out in a grassy plateau looking up towards the next hill you have to climb or it can have you standing on the edge, feeling like if you take the wrong step, you’ll fall!

In this moment I feel like Abraham.  Going to a place unbeknownst to me and waiting for God to show me along the route.  In this place I know that I will be changed.  In this season I know that God is making all things new!  I am pursuing God!  Pursuing God will lead you to your destiny.  You don’t have to pursue the destiny!  When you follow Jesus he will lead you beside green pastures as Psalms 23 tells us!  There is a freedom in knowing that you are following God and totally trusting him.  The month of July I put my trust in someone I don’t even know, just met, and followed them to a Christian conference that changed my life forever!  In this journey that lasted 4 days I managed to do things I would never do.  Camping and showering outside was the big ones!  All my basic needs were met and provided for.  I couldn’t ask for a better weekend. In it I saw how we should follow God.  I didn’t ask a lot of questions upfront.  I just said okay.  Trusting this person whom btw is a Christian.  My spirit never said no.  It just said okay.  With God we just need to learn to say okay.  No need to ask 50 questions.  We know God knows the plans he has for our lives right (Jeremiah 29:11)?

There is a freedom in following God, no questions, no doubts, just completely relying on him.  I’m asking you to trust him today!

 

 

DUMP TRUCKS

Hey bloggers and readers I have a question for you!  Who are you allowing to dump their trash into your space?  It’s a hard question I’m sure, since you have to start looking at the people you love.  

Who are you allowing to dump negativity in your life?  Is it a spouse?  A boyfriend/girlfriend or BFF?  One more question, are you the dump truck?  

Some people are so used to complaining that they don’t know how to have a normal conversation.  Is the first thing you do when you call a friend/spouse/significant other is start unloading your problems? I was guilty at one point in my life.  People who are dump trucks dump their problems into your life on a regular basis.  Sometimes daily.  If you are the “dumper” let me tell you something that no one else has…you wear out people.  

The reason why is people often have their own problems and if your flooding their text msgs and phone with issues you overwhelm them.  Now the person is focused on your issue plus theirs!  If you are on the receiving end learn how to filter information.  Sometimes people need someone to pour into for a season!  Notice I said a season!  People who constantly find a familiar place to dump will continue unless you stop them.  

Dumpers need to learn to go to God.  It’s a perfect time to go to God in prayer and tell him the issue.  It trains you to go to the Father that makes all the possible.  Your friends family spouse can’t always help in certain situations or feelings.  Some things need to go to God.  Talking to God can be awesome experience when he responds to you.  Here is another short and sweet blog!  Have a blessed day!

 

 

 

 

 

 

CHRISTIAN DATING

 

This will be a quick an easy blog folks!  Just wanted to share some quick and easy ways to dicipher if you are struggling with lust or love for a potential mate.

Consider this:  You should always see your mate or interest as God sees them.  They are not an object for your affection, but a person.

Here are a couple of examples of what this may look like
How a woman of God thinks:

  1. His worship is authentic.
  2. Wow he can pray!
  3. He is sooooo nice!
  4. His personality is awesome!
  5. He loves the Lord.

How a woman with lust thinks:

  1. His eyes are gorgeous!
  2. He got them kissin lips.
  3. Look at his arms!
  4. He must workout
  5. I can imagine what he workin wit’.

Poor guy, ladies you already sizing him up!

How a man of God thinks:

  1. She must love the Lord.
  2. She has a great spirit.
  3. She is so wise.
  4. She is so sweet.
  5. She is so giving.

How a man with lust thinks:

  1. She fine!
  2. I can think of 10 things I wanna do with her!
  3. Look at her booty/boobs!
  4. She so sexy!
  5. She can have my baby!

Sorry fellas…A woman of God that knows who she is won’t care that you like these things about her. 

COMMENTS ARE ALWAYS WELCOME!  GOD BLESS

SEPARATION VS. PREPARATION P2

 


King James Bible
Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.  2 Corinthians 5:17

I don’t mean to brag, but I am the queen of moving on!  I can’t stand holding on to old junk.  To me if it’s broke don’t fix it!  Literally!  Just throw it away. Id rather have something that is fully functional than slightly dysfunctional.  E.g. slightly working flat irons, old clothes, old worn out shoes, even things I just don’t use anymore.  This is why yard sales do so awesome! You can make a decent amount of money getting rid of things you don’t need or use anymore. When it came to my personal vehicle, I was ready to toss it too.  As soon as a sensor went out I was done, because i didn’t have the patience nor the funds to deal with it at time. I was looking for perfection in a man made product.

On the other hand, there is something extraordinary about something that was once broken, torn, used and it’s restored.  Just ask the genius that invented rustic furniture.  At some point the scratched piece of furniture lost its visual appeal, but has been reformed and looks brand new. The good news is we can be the same way.  I am sure you have heard this before in your walk with God.  But what happens when you reach that place where you feel stagnant.  That you can’t grow anymore.  You’re praying for 30 minutes, you read your bible all the way through, you go to Sunday service: now what?  It’s time to stretch! You’ve prayed for 30 minutes for quite a while, try an hour!  You’ve read your bible all the way through, now try word studies!  You’ve been faithful to Sunday service, now join a ministry and serve in the church!

Being stagnant can only come from two ways….you’re not moving or you’re being blocked!

Higher levels require a lighter load!

Some things you just have to be willing to let go of!

  1. FRIENDS

This one may be the hardest.  Especially if they are life long friends.  But consider this.  If you friend wants to move to California for their purpose and you want to move to Florida to fulfill your purpose.  Guess what?  You are already separated because your purposes are different.  It doesn’t mean that you both want cross paths later in life.  It just means for the time being you can’t help one another.

2.  OLD BAGS

Get rid of your old dirty thoughts!  Lighten that load!  Stop thinking and reminiscing about old boyfriends/girlfriends, old experiences, the “I remember when I used to”.  You don’t live there anymore.  Imagine standing on the cuff of the promise land and your still reminiscing about Egypt!  Stop it!

Separation is key to preparation.  God is trying to do a new thing and honestly your in his way!  Sometimes we spend so much time trying to repair broken things from our past we can’t embrace the new things.  The former man is gone.  That life is gone!  Disco is dead!  Move and prepare for greater!  See you at the promised land! 🙂

 

 

 

 

 

**COMFORTABLE SPACES**

IKEA is one of my favorite places to visit.  The showrooms are outstanding!  They are setup to make you believe you have that much style and grace, and can become a pro designer.  Separated by glorious kitchens, magical bedrooms, and comfortable living rooms; your fantasy home comes alive in IKEA as you can make your living space your own. For first time home buyers and small space apartment onlookers IKEA is a dream come true.  They have mastered the comfortable places look.

Comfortable places make us feel like we are in a place of peace.  We can be ourselves and no one can judge us.  

They are perfect places to hide and get away from reality.  The room pictured above would be perfect for a couple of home-bodies!

The problem with comfortable spaces with Christians is that we never want to leave.  We get stuck in a comfortable place.  Sound familiar?  Perhaps your finally caught up on the bills, making a decent salary and you stop pushing for that promotion.  Or you get to a place spiritually where you know the word, your serving, praying, worshiping God, but you stop stretching.  Perhaps you know God is telling it’s time to grow up, but you are comfortable sitting on the couch.  You don’t want to move because you are in a familiar place and you fear the unknown.  

God, if you can understand and grasps this, does not like comfortable spaces.  He doesn’t like boxes.  He is a magnificent God!  So why would he want his people to do the bare minimum.  When God does a thing or performs…he establishes it.  He makes it known to ALL!  He does it exceedingly abundantly above all we could ask or think!  This is what a spirit of excellence looks like!  

David grew in stature!  From sheep herder to King!  He allowed God to groom him!  And in the time of promotion God judged and Saul was sat down!  God will do the same for you too…if you come our of your comfortable space….

To be continued…..