It’s been a while since my last blog. If you’re wondering why just re-read the title. Yes! I officially did exactly what the bible said not to do. I became weary in well-doing. So what happened you ask? I’ll get to that in a sec. I still want to keep my tradition and live up to the name short n’ sweet by keeping this blog as short as possible!
Long story short, I felt like Sarah, Abraham’s wife in the bible. I believed God for a promise he made me a few years ago. No seriously, I really did believe. But after months turned into years, I started to question whether or not God was holding out on me. I felt I was ready to get the blessing sooner rather than later, and that feeling quickly turned into anger and frustration when nothing happened right away.
After months, turned into years of praying and crying about the same thing, I became like Sarah, extremely frustrated and I decided to take matters into my own hands. When it didn’t work out, AT ALL, I began to lose hope in what I was once believed so strongly. Once the enemy stole my hope, I no longer had the strength to fight the battle of faith. I quietly settled for defeat.
Even in my silent suffering, God never left me. In fact, he was working behind the scenes I just did not see it! My weariness had taken me out, so the enemy thought. What the devil didn’t know is that even though I had lost my faith that it would come to pass soon; A piece of me still knew it would come to pass, just not in the time frame I wanted. Do you know God met me in my weary place? Hallelujah! Just like he met Elijah in the cave, God met with me! He gave me the scripture we all know and love in Isaiah 40…they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall mount up with wings as eagles, they shall run and not faint! Yes God! Your word is life and like a fresh cold of water! It snapped me right out of my coma!
Slowly but surely my faith is increasing, my hope is returning! But the greatest lesson of all was learning about God’s grace. I’ll never let myself get this weary ever again now that I understand more about God’s grace. He gives us grace to endure! Grace to love! Grace to serve Him! I am forever grateful for his grace! I will ask for it every morning, because I now understand I need it every single day! I was never meant to carry this life on my own. That’s why on your journey with Christ, in the sand you’ll see two footprints instead of one. Selah.